I wish I could tell you how you changed me
I wish you were worthy of knowing it
The glass wall which shields me now
Also keeps me devoid of trust.
Words seem shallow
As if they hold no value
And love is just another word
That artfully slaughters kindness.
I still wonder
Whether I am happy that you left
Or whether I am okay that you lied
I had learnt many lessons
Then why you?
I was, but, vulnerable by choice
But to not just to you.
To give this world a chance.
To patronise my thoughts
And instead believe
That people were kind.
No, I hold nothing against you!
But only if you weren’t a liar
I could at least respect you
Like others who left.
But I don’t.
For you stirred all those quiet waters within me
With no intentions of rowing through
With no care for the me
Or for the goodness
That you didn’t know you were blessed with.
And I, the forever naive, longed for you.
Not because I longed for love
But because I longed for hope.